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Monday, April 7, 2008

Tears or Fears

So yes...the fear goes on...the ultrasound is still 2 WEEKS AWAY PEOPLE! That is a long friggin' time!! I want someone to tell me that everything is fine, will be fine and will stay fine. You won't blow up into a hippo, you won't throw your guts up and you will be able to sleep like the 8lb baby Jesus. I want to know that the delivery will go wonderfully easy and safe. And, that the baby is alive and will stay alive and be perfect! So...which one of you is going to say that and have me love you forever (and not believe you all at the same time). Obviously I could go on and on about my fears. Instead, I'll tell you what's been bringing me to tears (other than fears):
-The Cosby Show (Dr. Huxtable telling-crap what's her name, not Rudy, but the one older than Rudy...ugh my brain has stopped working! Anyway, telling one of his girls how hard it is to be a teenager)
-People giving away money on Oprah's Big Gift (just the commercial, I didn't even watch the episode)
-Not having french fries at my desk today, nor a car to get them
-Seeing an unfortunate looking couple have a baby on TLC and immediately thinking they were the cutest people on Earth
-when the mom and daughter on Little People Big World saw a whale
-the preacher at church (I pretty much cried the whole service...all about trust)
-reading the news article about the good luck charms soldiers carry with them
-thinking about having my very own baby, mine mine mine mine mine
There's probably more...but I can't think of it all right now. That's another thing, my brain isn't working well lately. I am extremely forgetful. Like I'll start to do something and before I can really do it, I'll forget what I was doing.
Like now, I'm watching Little People Big World and I forgot I was blogging.


Anonymous said...

It was Vanessa!

I cried the other day at the Saved by the Bell graduation episode and I am not even pregnant!

Melissa (Stacy's friend)--PS ya'll read my blog too! :)

Breezy said...

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK...i cannot believe I couldn't think of VANESSA!! Sheesh...i'm a Cosby addict and I couldn't think of VANESSA? What is wrong with me? I'm certainly mentioning this at the first pre-natal visit...this, my friend is a problem. VANESSA!!!

Stacy said...

The worry is apparently normal for pregnancy too - if it makes you feel any better. :) You're fine, little Starin is fine - all is fine, I promise.

Breezy said...

And I-e-I-e-I will always loooove youuuuu...oh I will always love UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. (this is why I love the stacy...I'm believing you, for the moment =) )

Amy said...

Your baby is living and growing inside you every day and will continue to do so until your water breaks about 9am on a Saturday right at the time you would have awoken from your peaceful slumber. Your labor will be so short and effortless they shouldn't even call it labor. You will then meet this beautiful child that is just the right combination of you and Josh and you will know that all is right in the world and that this child is yours, yours, yours, to love for the rest of your life. Believe it, it's real! (Except maybe for the 9am water breakage and the effortless labor, other than that, it's totally real.)